John Bunyan’s character Christian in A Pilgrim’s Progress felt he was sinking into the mire, The Slough of Despond. A boggy place where he wallowed until Help pulled him out“the sinner is awakened about his lost condition, there arises in his soul many fears and doubts, and discouraging apprehensions, which all of them get together, and settle in this place: and this is the reason of the badness of this ground..“
I don’t think that I am a sinner and being punished but I do feel the fears and doubts, the discouraging apprehensions. Is there a post CI slough into which you fall after the euphoria wears off?
All my hopes and successes of the past few months seem diminished as I realise that, yes I can hear better than before but I still can’t join in group conversations easily, that I can’t use the phone, that learning is harder for me, that opportunities are still harder for me to grasp at.
I’m in that mire right now and I know that Help will come along to get me out but in the meantime I’m wallowing and sinking deeper.